Monday, October 10, 2011

Slightly Imperfect Perfect

Someone told me over the weekend to embrace and accept that I am slightly imperfect perfect.

Hello everyone! My name is Anna and I am a perfectionist..and an accountant by trade so that might make me a bit crazy..yet the good and fun crazy!

So my first share to the group is that I didn't want to share because I was way behind in the challenge..
You see I wasn't following everything to the letter "T" and didnt do my mid day focus and than didnt write down some intentions and didnt do some(okay most) meditations...so I felt like I was failing..Silly thought really how can I be "failing" at a challenge that I signed up for and is spiritual and healing in nature..so how can I truly "fail"? Yet the fact is I am so concerned that I didnt do certain things perfectly that well it wouldnt work because I didnt do EVERY SINGLE THING AT THE PRECISE MOMENT OF TIME AND NOW IT IS DAY 10!

And let me tell you I let this idea of having to be perfect at everything I do that it makes me at times not do things or not be able to experience life in the moment or have missed opportunities...(or in this case not have more amazing moments in my life and bring more into my life by trying to do this challenge perfectly!)

However--AMAZING things are happening..especially in the past few days..some are reinforcements of things I have gone through tons of times..yet still need to be reminded of (which this challenge is reinforcing a ton without me even knowing it!!)

I am accepting the fact that well I am slightly imperfect perfect..which gives me a sense of acceptance and relief...
That the universe will give me more if I just ummmm....LET GO
That I naturally do my best and when I attempt to be absolutely perfect I actually start wasting tons of energy and time
Accepting that I wont get everything right all the time and that I sometimes just have to walk down another street instead of walking down the same one and falling in the hole every.single.time.
I am more in tune with people around me (and myself) if I just ALLOW me to be me
I am learning to choose intentionally and to do it more often
I am exactly where I need to be (needs constant reinforcement!! I think its true more than I did before! =))
LOVE AND ACCEPTANCE are two things that have always been HUGE for me..and a true struggle internally and well it takes sometimes exactly what you are lacking to get what you trying to get...=)

So thanks for accepting my slightly imperfect perfect blog post!

SHOUT OUT TO MY BUDDY SUZI! Lets connect soon!!

Have a great night everyone!

Anna =)

PS Thanks Michelle for being who you are and bringing this challenge to our lives!

3 comments:

Michelle Young said...

Perfect! Just perfect!!! You also just won a prize for your blog post, but even more because you were real, honest and vulnerable :-) Anna, thanks for being you.

Anna D said...

=) Thanks Michelle..it felt good!
Having an amazing day! =) YIPPPEEE!

Jennifer Ward said...

I really enjoyed reading this post - thank you for sharing! I can totally relate to it and do appreciate your openness and honesty. Fantastic Anna!
I too am having an amazing day, despite it ending uncomfortably with some business issues that came to light at the end of the day. I'm hoping to toss those problems out there into the astral plane and wake up with a clear direction of what to do next! Woohoo!
Good night! Sleep well!